12 July 2008 Saturday
Saw him in the evening and he was acting really strangely. I’d been shopping in the afternoon with the girls and was a bit late meeting him, thought it might be that. The bar was really crowded and loud, so I suggested we go somewhere quieter. He was still very subdued and distracted so I suggested we went somewhere nice to eat. All through dinner he just didn’t seem himself – he hardly laughed didn’t seem to be paying any attention to me or to what I was saying. I just knew that something was wrong.
He dropped me back home and I wondered if he was going to come in, He hesitated but followed. I asked him what was wrong, but he just half shook his head and turned the television on. After about ten minutes of silence I said that I was going upstairs to bed, I put my arms around him and told him that I loved him deeply. He just gave a sigh and a sad sort of smile. He didn’t follow me up immediately but came up later and, to my surprise, we made love – but he still seemed distant and a bit cold.
I cried myself to sleep – I think he’s planning to leave me – maybe he’s found someone else.
Saturday 12 July
Played golf today and was crap – Gutted. Got a shag though